That is how I am feeling tonight! This year I have been trying to improve my health by eating better and exercising regularly. Over the years, I am embarrassed to say, I have allowed both to fall by the wayside. The fact that my weight has fluctuated so much is a testament to that fact.
I thought I was ready to make the change and stick with it. For the past few months I have been making changes to my eating habits. I have cut out a lot of sugar (not all---let's not get crazy now!!), added a lot of fruit to my diet (well for me it's a lot: 3 servings a day of fruit now instead of 0 or 1 serving), ate smaller portions (I only use my small plates), made healthier choices when I ate out, etc.....I even cut down on my Starbucks!! I now only get one 2-3 times a week instead of 7.
I also started exercising regularly for awhile: running 3 times a week, I did Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred (well, I completed 10 days in a row of the 30 days), and I ran in my first 5K in May of this year. Since the 5K race, however, I have been lax on my running and stopped doing The Shred.
As I've said before I have been having trouble sleeping the past few months, which, I know, doesn't help. It seems that no matter how tired I am, once I take out my contact lenses I get a second wind, if you will, and am wide awake until 2:00am or later. Unfortunately for me, every couple of years insomnia arrives and wreaks havoc on my life for a few months before finally departing.
Well, my eating has been okay...a week or two ago I actually started writing down what I ate and calculated the calories. However, over this holiday weekend, any good eating habits I have learned jumped out of the window! Actually, the last 2 days I have eaten a lot of crap (sugar....which is my downfall) but worse, I have been constantly eating.
On top of all of that, I've mentioned before that I haven't been drinking enough water and always feel dehydrated. I don't know why this is so hard for me since I have always been the girl with the big water bottle with her at all times! Up until the last year or so I always drank plenty of water. Why the change?? I have no idea.
So, it scared me when I read the following in the latest Shape magazine (I've been a subscriber for many years) today. It said: 18 "extra times your heart beats per minute when you exercise while dehydrated". It went on to say: "That kind of jump increases the strain on your ticker, which makes your workout feel harder. To get enough fluids, sip 16 ounces of water before exercise, and drink another 10 ounces for every 15 minutes that you're moving." Yikes!! By my NOT drinking enough fluids and allowing myself to get dehydrated, I am doing more harm when I exercise.
I have tried to talk to family and friends but, like I always say, they are not supportive in my making any changes in my life. They give me what I call lip service, basically yessing me. But when it comes right down to it, they always encourage me to continue down the wrong path (bad food, large quantities and no exercise). And, honestly, it has to stop. I realize I must depend on, and motivate, myself.
So, I sat down tonight and wrote out a menu and exercise plan for the remainder of the week, instead of just for tomorrow. What's going to be different this time?? I have no idea. All I can say is that I have to take things one day at a time. Well, more likely, one moment at a time for now.
Right now, most importantly, I have to get enough sleep and drink enough water. If I am not doing those two things, I will continue to falter, especially with exercise. As for eating, I know what to do and getting back on track won't be as difficult. I will start first thing tomorrow morning.
I have to start tracking it all to hold myself accountable. It's going to be hard (well, more time consuming anyway) but sticking with it and finally getting back into shape will be my reward. Wish me luck!! Where's Jillian Michael's when you need her to give a little motivation?! lol